I think I know what will make me happy. To be honest though, I’m almost always wrong. Well, maybe “wrong” is a little bit dramatic, but I’m hardly ever right.
The “wrong” for me comes from a disconnection from myself, God, my values and lots and lots of noise.
I think I need a beer to relax at the end of the night, when perhaps a cup of tea and a bit of fresh air would do the trick.
I think I need a day at the mountain to restore my soul, when it turns out the car ride with a little music and reflection is the most powerful part of my day.
I think ten more minutes with the kids will drain the last of my energy, when reading, laughing and connecting with my four-year-old leaves me feeling lighter and more rejuvenated.
I think I need more money, more time, more healthy choices, more sleep, more childcare, more vacation, more adventure… when perhaps, I already have more than enough.
It’s a bit embarrassing to realize how much of my life is guided by this ambiguous feeling of “what I think will make me happy” instead of a deeper connection to myself, my values, God…
I’ve been drawn to a song lately, and a bit infatuated with the lyrics.
Spotify: Loving Me by Bryan McCleery & Ashley McCleery
YouTube: Loving Me by Bryan McCleery & Ashley McCleery
Lyrics
The King, was looking for me?
How can this be?
How can this be? (repeat)
Pre-Chorus:
Remind me again what I’m worth to you
Remind me again what I mean to you (repeat)
Chorus:
It’s Your favorite thing to do
Loving me, loving me
So lend me Your strength and give me Your love
I’m undeserving, fill up my cup anyway
I thought You’d despise my crippled frame
I thought You’d forsake me because my lineage is shame
The King, was looking for me?
How can this be?
How can this be?
(Repeat Pre-Chorus)
(Repeat Chorus)
Tag:
Every day, every day you’re whispering
“I love you, stay with Me”
The “stay with me” has infatuated me. How do we do that?!? How do we stay in-step, in-tune, in-line with God? How would that change my pursuit of happiness?
AND God knows happiness. Better than that, He knows joy. He wants to give us “life and life abundant.” Instead, I often settle for my distracted, scattered, busy-brained and feeble attempts to chase “happiness.”
Yet, He is inviting me to “stay with” HIm.
Do you believe these lyrics? How might it change you if you did?
How do you allow your true-self to be found?
Will you let God remind you what you’re worth to Him?
How do you “stay with Him?”
How do you stay in-tune with yourself, your values, the Spirit?
Annika C.
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